Emotions

It has almost been one year since our Baby Axel was born.  My emotions are like a roller coaster, every little thing starts the tears.  I miss our baby terribly!!!  Things are not fair sometimes.  I have been thinking about what to do for Axel's birthday and it has been soo hard.  Everytime I start to think about plans, I don't get far because I get too upset and can't handle the sadness!